What I’m Loving (and not loving) about Internship

What I’m Loving (and not loving) about Internship

Flower growing in a pot.

It’s crazy to think that two months have passed since I first landed in Hamilton. I’m about a third of the way through my time here, and it feels like I’ve just found my footing. It hasn’t been easy. It is so hard to feel at home when everything is unfamiliar. You start to appreciate the little things: the window displays, the billboards, the boardroom table. These random things have given me a small sense of stability while I navigate all the new. They are little things that I can glance at each day and think, “I recognize you.”

So what am I enjoying so far? Making new friends is definitely on the top of my list. Friendships are hard and I’ve had quite a few toxic ones over the years. It is incredibly uplifting to be connecting with other young Christian leaders. Going to dinner or seeing a movie with them allows me to take a break from being “Intern Mo” and allows me to just be me. I’m also enjoying seeing more of Hamilton and trying new food. There are so many great restaurants here! RIP bank account. And of course, getting to be involved in ministry and using my gifts is a great feeling. I’m really excited about designing more creative worship elements, and growing a youth program! I’m looking forward to seeing what God will do in this community and how we’ll be changed in the process.

So what’s not to love? Well, for one, I miss my car. Even though I’m not the biggest fan of driving and am perfectly content to walk, having my car meant independence. I could go wherever I wanted whenever I wanted. I miss that. I also miss being focused on one thing. Now, anyone who knows me knows that I’m involved in many different things at Ambrose, but it was all Ambrose-centered. I could wake up and put on my ‘student hat’ and go. Internship is more of a juggle between working and studying and socializing, and I haven’t really had to balance that before. I actually miss spending a whole day in the library writing papers and completing assignments. I’m taking one class while I’m on internship, and I’m struggling to give it the attention I normally would back on campus. I actually think about life on campus quite often. I feel like I am missing out on so many of my favourite events! I love watching my friend’s Instagram stories and seeing all the fun that they are having, but I can’t help but wish that I was right there with them. But there are experiences to be had here too, so I’ll try my best to stay focused on the life in front of me.

As the temperatures get warmer and the days get longer, I’m becoming more and more comfortable with being on internship. There’s been some ups and downs, but as long as the general growth is up and up, I’ll be ok. This is what life is about. You have to push yourself and adapt to new surroundings. If you stay in the same pot, you’ll never grow.  

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